As I go to counseling and talk to my family and friends, the truth of things that have happened to me or that I have done will come out. Some will be graphic, others sad, some might just be angering for others. For all this I am sorry, but it needs to come out so that people can understand where my depression and anger come from. There for I do want to apologize a head of time and please don't be afraid to comment or leave your thoughts on my Blog. Thank You.

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Sunday, June 27, 2010

Relapse? I think not!

Surely no one thought a few bad days was going to stop me, did they? LOL. Well my family sure as hell thought so and were beginning to get concerned and crabby with me. I'm a stronger person then that and I refuse to allow this "illness" get the better of me as I have for many many years.

Since I last wrote, school has ended. I am so proud of myself for the grade I got in English Composition that how can I let little things like money get to me? (LOL. Ok we all know money isn't a little thing) But I'm a survivor and always have been. Back to english, I rocked this quarter! I had every intention of dropping English class, but I kept going with it and I feared the worst as I always got a D growing up. I pulled through the quarter with a B average! See! Proud of myself!

An amazing opportunity may have just landed in my lap. Due to me being a P2P for NAMI many people have found out about me and the different work I have done and are very impressed. This is what I'm hearing from my boss, who has yet to work me, but I know a day will come when I am working more then I should be. LOL. I can't wait! Back to this new opportunity; someone from UNC contacted me and asked about volunteering and volunteers, I of course am saying yes, but we shall see if I am one of the chosen few.

I have had a fun day so far, I got out and washed my truck, while I was at it decided to give all 3 dogs a bath, and mowed their pen. Pretty productive if I do say so. Oh and I dealt with grandma. LOL.

I have noticed that I haven't done a gratitude list in a while so I feel it's time for one.

1) I am grateful to UNC and the hopeful volunteer position
2) I am grateful to MYSELF for the strength I possess not to harm myself or be admitted.
3) I am grateful for the great job I did in school this quarter
4) I am grateful to the people who stick by me, because they can
5) I am grateful for the little things in life that make me smile.

Have an awesome Sunday everyone!

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