As I go to counseling and talk to my family and friends, the truth of things that have happened to me or that I have done will come out. Some will be graphic, others sad, some might just be angering for others. For all this I am sorry, but it needs to come out so that people can understand where my depression and anger come from. There for I do want to apologize a head of time and please don't be afraid to comment or leave your thoughts on my Blog. Thank You.

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Saturday, December 26, 2009

Ready to Crack

For the most part I am a wonderfully happy person, who cherishes the Holidays. Yesterday and today I am a derangged animal waiting to be let out to terrorize people. Mainly my fucking step-father who cant seem to find it in that fucked up head of his to shut the fuck up for the first time in his life. The comments he makes are annoying,he criticizes everything and everyone, he is a rude person, he knows everything, and always has the noise up on his computer so he can hear this loud screaching noise every once in a while. I can hear him over my head phones and its driving me insane. I can not deal with him this year! Why doesn't his ass just go back on the road!

Normally I try to keep the peace for my moms sake. But he is really pushing my limits since he has been home. I was doing so damn good controling my temper to, but now all I want to do is smack the hell out of him. I really wish she would find her a different man, but for some reason she loves him and keeps him around. Mom did a nice thing and bought me a head set yesterday, as she knows I don't need his sarcastic mouth talking to me. He is critcal of everything.

Note to bloggers; Some who is an Associopath and Someone with Bipolar DO NOT MIX WELL