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As I go to counseling and talk to my family and friends, the truth of things that have happened to me or that I have done will come out. Some will be graphic, others sad, some might just be angering for others. For all this I am sorry, but it needs to come out so that people can understand where my depression and anger come from. There for I do want to apologize a head of time and please don't be afraid to comment or leave your thoughts on my Blog. Thank You.

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Sunday, March 21, 2010

Negative, with a Positive Twist

We all reflect on the negative things in life, but for those of us who suffer from a Mental Illness, such as Bipolar Disorder, Post Traumatic Stress, Borderline Personality Disorder,  Major Depression, it can be hard to let go of all the negative things that have happened in our lives either directly to use or surrounding us.

The road to recovery begins by starting to let the feelings of negativity go.

Your probably saying to yourself right now that I'm crazy for even suggesting it, but trust me I'm not. When you let go of the negative and put your energy in another direction, things might not look totally out of this world awesome, but they will slowly start to improve!

I read a hell of a lot of blogs and messages on boards through out each day and the thing that grabs me the most of each message is the negativity (yes even on my blog). You'd think it would be the person's need for help or attention that would grab me the most, but it's not, it the negative reflections that they have on themselves or their lives.

One thing I have learned from my DBT group, if anything, is that surrounding myself with to much negativity kills me, even when it comes from myself. It makes me want to cut, get depressed, or whatever. But it does kill me. Trust me, too much positivity makes me want to puke also. LOL. So I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't. Where do we find a happy medium?

I have a quote on my vision wall that I read daily, I'll put it here to share with you all. It inspires me to become a better person.

The most inspirational thing in life is a person who has overcome obstacles and hardships. Norman Vincent Peale

I adore that quote! Just something about it makes me WANT to succeed in my recovery and stick to it!

I know its a hard thing to do, but try to think positive and at some point it will all start to click. Don't reflect on the negative if you can help it.....

5 Things I am Grateful for today....

1) My vision wall! It helps me see the positive when all I want is the negative.
2) Wet puppy kisses and loving when all I want to do is curl up and cry
3) Books that take my mind off the dark places.
4) Birds chirping to remind me I'm alive.
5) For being able to go swimming when all I wanted to do was hide away.

2 comments:

BriNealey said...

It's funny that you wrote this bc I was just thinking the same thing about myself. I was looking over my blog on an old myspace account and almost every one of them is so negative. If I go by reading that it's almost as if I never had a happy moment in my life. It'd always so easy to bring up the negatives from the past but not so much with the positive. And congrats on working so hard towards recovery!

Stacy said...

I just came across your blog this evening. I've enjoyed reading a few of your posts and admire your efforts and attitude. I look forward to following.

I'm currently in DBT for my BPD and see that you've done the program as well. I see that you're finished with the program and feeling a bit lost. Although I'm not nearly finished, I'm really benefitting from creating blogging circle of people who are strong in DBT.

Love your gratitude list idea. I'd like to practice that in some form as well.

Take care,
Stacy