As I go to counseling and talk to my family and friends, the truth of things that have happened to me or that I have done will come out. Some will be graphic, others sad, some might just be angering for others. For all this I am sorry, but it needs to come out so that people can understand where my depression and anger come from. There for I do want to apologize a head of time and please don't be afraid to comment or leave your thoughts on my Blog. Thank You.

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Thursday, April 29, 2010

Finished Something!

I Finally Did It! I finished something. Probably not for the first time in my life, but it sure as hell feels like it has been a long time since I have finished something to the end. I got accepted into last weeks Peer Support Training and completed it! I am so f-ing proud of myself. So between that training and school, it has been hell these past few weeks, but I am surviving.

I've been feeling very proud of me and the work I am accomplishing. However I do find myself over whelmed with everything I have going on. The good thing is that I'm not letting it get to me. When I start to feel myself falling into that "I wanna cut" cycle, I take a deep breath and step back to see where this is all going or why it's going there. For me to be able to do something like that is one of my most amazing accomplishments. Never in my life have I thought I would be able to step back and examine "me" before it got out of control.

I'll be sending off my paperwork tomorrow or monday so that I can get my certification and pray that I can get a job in the area of being a Peer Support Specialist. I want to thank the group I went through my class with. You guys are an amazing bunch and have great things ahead of you....

My grateful list;

1) I am grateful to Mr. Robert Cox and Carolina Outreach for allowing me to take the course.
2) I am grateful to myself for finally seeing that I can overcome issues with myself when I put my mind to it.
3) I am grateful for my pup Rev, lord knows he keeps me laughing.
4) I am grateful for my new nephew who will grace us with his presence on August 11th.
5) I am grateful for having such wonderful friends and a very supporting family!